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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Poem from a Friend/Fan

The Warrior Queen of Tussle:

“There is a story to be told…of a legend that will unfold.”

A warrior queen who lived for the physical contest and its struggle,
Chose not to scuffle but to make an art form…the tussle.

She possesses the combative spirit, but is it masking a juggle?
When her heart leads the fight against those with more muscle.

Is the loss of a contest in the arena of life, the inner spirits quest for a snuggle?
Can this be long endured through your tenuous bustle?

Is her Starr shine quality…a silent tussle, something she must smuggle?
Or is it a warrior’s complex web of unconditional and unselfish hustle.

Her giving and valiant spirit of tussle should be a celebration not another struggle.
Our warrior’s triumphant combat in both body and mind, is time again softened by her silken rustle.

For the legend of our warrior queen to truly unfold she must glean from the past, not from those critical timid souls, so that this intimate story can be fully told!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

My Recent Adventures!!

Gosh, where do I start this. . .
I am used to being so concise but so much has happened in the past 6

ok, i will start with Tampa. . .how I love Tampa. . how I would love to live
in Tampa. . LOL. . in the midst of training for my big fight at the end of
March, I took three days off to fly down to Tampa and see two Tigers Spring
Training games. . . I should have had some inkling to how the season was
going to start in Detroit, as the Friday I sat in Lakeland Florida in 80+
degree weather and got sunburnt and pooped on by seagulls, they lost. . but
I had a wonderful time. . the tension inside of me unraveling. . texting
with my friends during the game so I was never really alone (though the lady
at the rental car place was incredulous when she found out I was traveling
on my own, and I simply said, "Less Hassles.") I had some fun sessions that
night, and then the next day I headed to Jill Lauren's new home to do a
custom video with her. . . I really love that girl and feel like we have
such good chemistry together. . then I was off to Clearwater, FL to watch
the Tigers play the Phillies. . I had excellent tickets, in between home
plate the 1st base (Tigers side) side dugout. . 8 rows up. . I was close
enough to smell Magglio (wow, I so sound like a stalker. . LOL). . the game
got rained out in the 4th inning. . so I sent a text out to the Beast, Dan
Severn, who had already told me earlier in the week that he would also be in
Tampa this same weekend. . and he called me back and asked if I would like
to go to the fights at the Sundome that night. . LOL. . Hell Yes, I
replied!!! Have I told you lately how blessed I am?

So, fight night at the dome, and Dan Severn is doing commentary on the
fights and also giving away an award for coaching wrestling. . so I end up
with VIP access to World Fighting League. . so cool. . I
am on the floor next to the cage with celebrities and strippers. . and I am
chuckling the whole time. . a table of guys starts buying me drinks and man
what great fights. . what a night. . . I was in bed by 11 though.. I am an
old lady who needs her rest.. . . LOL. . . and if I went out at that time, I
would have partied all night. . . and it would have been very hard to catch
my flight home in the morning. . . .

Next we have my fight, Hook N Shoot, Evansville, IN- wow and . . UGH. . .
. what can I tell you about this? Let's start with some honesty. .fighting
is not my whole life, and MMA fighting is not my "career" what it is, to me,
is a hell of a time. . a way to test myself. . a challenge, an adrenaline
rush. . a reason to train and get my self back together again. .. I love
fighting in all forms. . . I love running, too. . . and rollerskating. .
LOL. . it was a hell of a fight, going the distance and I think, in the
third round, I finally found myself again. . you may not understand this
statement, but those of you who have been close to me understand what I had
been going though. . some rather tough times . . and in the third round
Andrea is pounding me and I just want it to end, I am so tired of her
beating me. .and suddenly, from deep inside wells up the fighter. . the girl
who never gives up. . and she screamed "NO." That girl, that fighter, found
her voice again. . I hate that it took so much for me to finally find myself
again. . but I feel like me again. . . and as I stated in a posting to my
group "She knocked some sense into me." Andrea herself is totally my kind
of girl. . . fierce yet sweet, and pretty to boot. . we bonded almost right
away. . and she was so much bigger and stronger than me. . I was like a
helpless kitten in that match, and all my trainers have insisted that I
fight at #115 from now on. . . and in watching the video. . UGH. . I know
they are right. . I had a black eye the next day and bruising around the
sides of my face. .it hurt to smile or eat. . but I felt really good, too. .
though, on the 7 hour drive home, I had wished that there was someone there
waiting for me, to just hold me for a bit and tell me they were proud of me.
. and maybe I don't have that. . but what I do have is a thousand friends
and fans who sent me gifts, flowers, e-mails and texts that made me feel
like a queen. . sometimes I don;t know how I would go on without all of the
people who support me on a daily basis. . . I cannot say what you mean to
me. . how you fill me up inside, strengthen me. . and make my life so
wonderful. . I hope I give that back to each of you. . . and the fight as
available for download at my clips store. . .

At this point, I had ten days to get ready for the Women's Wrestling
Convention in San Diego and also to try to catch up from my very busy
March., . .oh yeah, and Baseball season began. . . I have been to three
games so far this year. . and the Tigers did manage to win one of those. .
LOL. . I knew going in that Sabrina (Hurricane Havana) was not going to
fight me. . but I just wanted to have enough good matches that my sponsors
would be happy when they got the videos. .I knew I did not want to do a
bunch of sessions at the convention, I wanted to fight in the ring and meet
the fans. . . I also wanted to enjoy San Diego, time with my friends and to
get to know Robin better (as I think she is so wonderful. . . ) This was a
classy event, the organizer, Jackpin, is a passionate man with a big heart
and a vision similiar to my own for this industry. . i really enjoyed him,
meeting him in person and just being at the convention. .

At the banquet on Friday night I meet many fans and old friends, but I also
met many people I had been a fan of myself or just had been wanting to meet
for quite a while. . I may have even kissed a girl. or two.. . . LOL. . and
I do believe I won that game of grab ass. . . LOL. . no matter what Katrina
said. . . to see Theo from, Greece! and Neko and Clayton. . Pete And D,
Christie Ricci, Robin, Earl Bob, and to meet so many new people. . including
Krissy, who as soon as we met in person took us over to the table to sign up
for our match the next day. . she probably took one look at little old me
and thought I would be easy. . but it wasn't for either of us. . we had a
hell of a match. . Katrina Rosebud (a relative newcomer to the industry) and
I started out the convention in the Am with a old school give and take style
of match where I let her win. . LOL. . it is fun to play the jobber
occasionally. . . and then I had two more comp matches that day, one with
Robin and one with Krissy. . they were both highly enjoyed by many and I
know one of them got a standing ovation. . but I rarely remember my fights.
. it is so zen to just be in the clench. . comepletely in the moment. . . I
love to wrestle. .
I even managed to work for Sleeperkid when I was there. . . all in all a
great time. . I did not stick around for Sunday and my crew and I needed to
get home. . I had concert tickets for Monday night. . .LOL. . and baseball
tickets for Tuesday night. . and it is a about a whole day of travel to get
home from there. . . but I big part of me wished I had more time there. .
.one reason is because I found Throwdown gym, San Diego and met Dean Lister
who teaches there and I want an opportunity to train with him. . and another
well, let's just say there is more of San Diego I haven't seen yet. . . and
I want to. . .

Home for two days. . and then I was off to Georgia to work for
. I can never say enough about this organization. . I love working for
them. . and seeing my girl Jenn and spending time with her and Robin. .
well. . it was amazing. . . we drank quite a bit of wine. . and we may have
fought a bit, too. . . LOL

The matches from WWC are available through me all on one DVD for $50.(just
e-mail me directly at .and on this Tuesday they will
be put up for download on my clipsforsale store. . . . . .
but if you would like DVD's now of each individual match, you can find those
through femfight videos. . . .

I am very blessed. . . I hope you feel the same. .
kisses and scissors,

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Bling (Confessions of a King)

When I offer you survival,
You say it's hard enough to live,
It's not so bad, it's not so bad
How do you know that you're right?

I awoke on the roadside,
In the land of the free ride,
And I can't pull it any longer,
The sun is beating down my neck

So I ran with the devil
Left a trail of excuses,
Like a stone on the water,
The elements decide my fate,
Watch it go..."bling".

When I offer you survival,
You say it's hard enough to live,
Don't tell me that it's over,
Stand up
Poor and tired,
But more than this

How do you know that you're right?
If you're not nervous anymore,
It's not so bad, it's not so bad

I feel my vision slipping in and out of focus,
But I'm pushing on for that horizon,
I'm pushing on,
Now I've got the blowing wind against my face

So you sling rocks at the rip tide,
Am I wrong or am I right?
I hit the bottom with a "huh!"
?? Quite strange,
I get my glory in the desert rain,
Watch it go..."bling".

When I offer you survival,
You say it's hard enough to live,
And I'll tell you when it's over,
Shut up poor and tired,
But more than this

How do you know that you're right?
If you're not nervous anymore,
It's not so bad, it's not so bad...

Higher and higher,
We're gonna take it,
Down to the wire,
We're gonna make it,
Out of the fire,
Higher and higher.

Higher and higher,
We're gonna take it,
Down to the wire,
We're gonna make it out,
Whoa-oh-oh Higher and higher...

It ain't hard to hold,
When it shines like gold,
You'll remember me.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Sea Sky Blue Eyes

Sea Sky Blue and Fog

Longing for you.
Surround myself in fog
Await your hand
That I might live again
Breath bated as I wait
Longing gazes
Sea Sky Blue Eyes
Love for you
All through me
Sickness settled into my bones
Cannot eat
Or think
Perpetual tears flow
The taste of you is ashes in my mouth
Bitter aftertaste
I cannot flee or fight
Thoughts of you reach me
Through the fog
And all I want
Ends with you
Smiling at me.

Burnt in my mind
“Home is where the Heart is”
I am a wandering fool
My stolen heart
Lost in this fog
To live again
In your Sea Sky Blue eyes