HHOOOOOKKKKK N SHHOOT Results

Ok Ok. . . I will update my blog. . Though I am honored to see how many people keep up with me this way. . .It is so amazing to know how many friends I have made since I started fighting. . . I have been so gosh darn blessed. . . .

Let's talk about November. . I have been training so hard. . As much as I can. . . Which means staying close to home and working myself into exhaustion most days. .I was down to 119# for a minute there. . . . But I did manage to leave and go to Lady Victoria's house to do custom video shoots on the weekend before my big fight. . . . it was Christie Ricci's Birthday. . so we went out to the bar for a couple drinks after 10 hours of shooting videos. . . It was a great weekend. . .I got to see Lady V again and Christie and Venus, but I also got to meet and work with Jungle Fever (what a class act this girl is. . and 6' tall!) and also Vanessa Harding who is a total trip. . . . I was there for three days. . and we worked hard. . . and Lady V treated me like a queen as usual. . .(she is so special to me).
I headed home for a day and a half before I headed out again. . This time to the Chicago area to see the Bodeans play with this cute boy that I have a great big crush out (I am completely smitten with his blue eyes and silly monkey antics. . LOL) The concert was wonderful. .

I took Thursday easy. .Only running three miles, and 30 flights of stairs. . And then sitting in a hot tub and sauna as much as I could. . . And awoke early to hit the road and head to O'Hare Airport to fly down to Evansville, IN. At the airport in Evansville I was picked up by the fight organizer, Jeff Osborne. . Great great guy. .He asked if I was worried about making weight. . and I said "no" I was pretty much fighting at my natural weight, 125#. . So he took me to grab some food on the way to the hotel and then I was checked in my noon. . . My corner man was on his way down and would be there by weigh-in time. . 4:30 Pm and HOOTERS. . . LOL. . Mike Krazz worked my corner for me and I tell you, I couldn't do it without him. He brought a friend with him, David. Lia Labowe's plane was scheduled to land at 9 pm, with a good friend of ours coming up to be with us for the fight and help get us around. . my sweet friend Mike. . (I call him sweet for many reasons, but my biggest one is that he makes by hand chocolate goodies for me. . Talk about being spoiled!!! He also drove his bike to my house and we rode around on it for a couple of days this last year!)
Anyhow. . . headed down to catch the stretch hummer limo that was to take the fighting girls to Hooter's for the weigh-in and also to sign my fight contract.

My opponent's name was Melissa Vasquaz. . a young woman from Fort Wayne, IN. She did not make weight. . . . at least not when I was there. . . they said she did eventually. . but it didn't matter to me, I am used to fighting people much bigger than I am. . .and I already felt like a winner just for being there. . . I had the opportunity to try myself in a ring in a form of fighting I train in but have never actually had a match in. I had faced my fears and met my goals just by Showing up. My only plan was to do my very best, and to let God bless the rest. . . wow. . it was all so crazy and cool and wonderful. . and the girls were awesome too!

The next day I headed to the gym with mike Krazz and my friends for some last minute training and to burn off some of my nervous energy. . we worked out for about two hours. .grabbed a light bite to eat and headed over to the venue for the fight. We still needed to do physicals and interviews. And then Lia braided my hair back. . and well, it was almost time. I went back downstage and changed and sparred a bit with Mike, we had been calling Dan Severn on the phone every chance we got to see what else he wanted us to do. . another one of our fighters from Dan Severn's Team (Team Danger-Zone, Bloodthirsty) had a fightin Cincinnati (which he won that night, congrats, Major!), so our team was out that night in force.

Before the fight I was so nervous. . . I seriously thought I would pee my pants or puke or something, my mouth was so dry and I had a hard time catching my breath. But when my music started, I danced out to the hexagon, took off my sweatshirt and got ready to rumble.

The fight lasted maybe three minutes. Melissa hit me in the face and rocked me, she got a couple more shots in, too. I am not used to getting hit like that. . It was so hard to think and know what to do. . but luckily Mike was in my corner calling out to me what to do. . I tried to hit her back. . I think I missed, I tried to kick her, she got out of the way of that, too. . But when Mike said go for the clench, I got in close and grabbed her. I took her down to the ground and she was in my guard, I squeezed a bit with my legs and then I managed to sweep her. . I had control for maybe seconds before she swept me back. . She started Hitting me again and all thought went out of my mind. . . This happened I think two more times. . We ended up in a position where she had one of my arms between her legs and then was in a cross body position trying for a key lock, but the angle was odd and we were almost out of the ring. I managed to pull out of it once we were re-positioned more towards the center of the ring, and then I managed to get her back in my guard again.. I worked rubber guard and got her head and one arm trapped between my legs, and then I remembered I could hit her. . I started hitting her in the face while I held her one trapped arm and she tapped. After she tapped I let go instantly (too used to being on my honor and not having a ref!) and her corner yells out, "Keep going, don't stop" so she takes a swing at me. . I jump back and go "Whoa" The ref asks what happened, I said, "She tapped." He asked her, "Did you tap?" and she answered, "Yes."

So I did it. . I won my first MMA bout

and then I went to Milwaukee. . . LOL. . but that's another story!

BearHugger Beaten (again)

The sequel to "Bearhugger Beaten" was created yesterday in Sybil's wrestlingroom. I was forty five minutes late and with no cell phone to call her with boy,was she annoyed. My phone card would not work either....I am very grateful thatshe even took me on. She usually waits only 1/2 an hour before moving on, butfrom her perspective the results were worth it!She won 9 of the fights' 13 falls. We were scheduled to go for 1/2 hour but bythe time the first 20 minutes were over she was teasing, quite accurately andwithout humor, that she was not even breathing hard while I was gasping andwinded. But I asked for her best fight. I'm not complaining or making excuses.Why should I complain when I got what I asked for?That mirthless teasing seemed to be punishment for my trash talking...shepromised to kick the crap out of me and, boy did she! I deserved more teasingand the beating I got, but from then on I only got the beating. Actually, once Iwas slightly hurt in one of our falls, she gave me a brief but sweet backmassage. That helped because I did not want to stop trying. Even though she beatme convincingly, and with basically the same holds she used before herMMA-mandated training, I enjoyed the fight and her company.One particularly telling fall was one of the last. I had been wrapping her upin bearhugs to which before her MMA she would often submit. Not yesterday, notonce. Once she was in the standing position and I was on my knees. I wrapped herin a bearhug and she stood, beginning finally to breathe hard, and wrapped aheadlock around me. We both moaned in pain and exertion but she stood herground. I get frustrated easily, and I finally moved to attempt another hold,thinking I had misapplied my bearhug. I asked her about it later, and she said"No, that was a great bearhug. But I am not gonna submit to your bearhug..."For a long time, when she was at a different level of ability and fitness, sheused to call me her challenge. I was justifiably proud of that since I could seeher skill, strength, and personal struggles refining her into a wonderfulperson.But she hasn't called me her challenge for a while now, and now I know why.I'm not her challenge any more, not by a long shot. I was beaten in every waythat a person can be beaten in a submission wrestling match yesterday. But Sybilwas gracious, friendly,and only gave me what my trash talking and my promise tobeat her deserved. I am pleased for her and proud of her, no matter how bruisedmy stubborn male ego is this morning!I wish and pray that you have the best fight of your life in the Hook N Shoot!God bless you for making the most of your skills and for being my friend!Bearhugger

Update

Ok, just over a week away from my first professional MMA fight (UFC type fighting-for those who do not know) and I am in the best shape of my life. .Yes, I did get pretty banged up this week, more blood than i have seen on myself in quite a while, but I am getting better and better . I have been working very hard to be able to do my best next weekend at Hook N Shoot. . . http://www.fightworld.com/events.html. . if you plan on being in the area next weekend please get a ticket and come out. . but buy your tickets soon. . this event tends to sell out. . .

My new website, http://www.lethalfemales.com/
is up and running, and currently contains clips from some of your favorite fighting girls, including Neko (the Canadian dreadlocked terror!) Mia, Lia, Keri (Arriana), Jen (http://www.webringit.com/), Dakota, Jasmine, and myself. . . with more to come from Gia Primo and Nikki Fierce. The site is PPV, which means no recurring membership fees, you onyl buy what you really want!! And you can also rent a video just to try them out. . .

This weekend I am off to Dayton to film with the lovely Lady Victoria. . Pro-Style Wrestling videos!!

I managed to find another old blog. . this one was from May 15th, 2006 of this year. . .
Enjoy!

SERENITY
Take my love, take my land Take me where I cannot stand I don't care, I'm still free You can't take the sky from me Take me out to the black Tell them I ain't comin' back Burn the land and boil the sea You can't take the sky from me There's no place I can be Since I found Serenity But you can't take the sky from me...

Some days I wish I could be like the cast members in the series “Firefly” just sail away into the sky and hide from it all. . .

I lay alone in my bed and think of all the possibilities. . . I can’t seem to sleep through the night any more, to bed late and up early. . .my heart hurts. . I am trying my best to do what’s right for the people in my life, but instead of feeling better about things I just get more and more frustrated. . . and I don’t know what to do anymore. . I feel like just getting out on the road and not coming back for a month or two. . . and I could make that happen. . .but I doubt it would make any of this better. .
I believe when you want something bad enough, you make it happen. . but . . everything comes with a price. . . and some days I am not up to paying.


So, Wednesday I return to training, I feel my foot is good enough to start easing my way back. . . and I need some good fights. . . .

Hollywood, CA was neat. I flew into Bob Hope Airport and stayed right in the heart of Hollywood, the people were walking around all self important. . . and in Hollywood, if you can’t make it in the movies. . there is always porn!!! LOL What a weird place. . LA LA LAND! I enjoyed the sun and the fights. . and after a full day of plane hopping managed to make it home. . .

Then on Saturday I had the honor of working for Lady Victoria for the first time. It was humbling to go from a video shoot I did very well at, to one where I am still so green, when it comes to pro-wrestling I still have so much to learn, but Lady V, Venus and Fantasia worked with me all day. . and it was so good to be welcomed into that secret sisterhood. . . there are no girls where I train and I finally had them all around me to swap stories and relate to. . *sigh* to be fully understood. . . they had been down this road. . been through relationships, and lived on the road. . . they knew what I felt. . they had felt it too. . . and again, to help me train and get better. . . and I got paid to do it!! I had a really great week of work. . .

And now I am back to realityWhere I lay alone at night and ponder all the possibilities. . .