Ok, just over a week away from my first professional MMA fight (UFC type fighting-for those who do not know) and I am in the best shape of my life. .Yes, I did get pretty banged up this week, more blood than i have seen on myself in quite a while, but I am getting better and better . I have been working very hard to be able to do my best next weekend at Hook N Shoot. . . http://www.fightworld.com/events.html. . if you plan on being in the area next weekend please get a ticket and come out. . but buy your tickets soon. . this event tends to sell out. . .
My new website, http://www.lethalfemales.com/
is up and running, and currently contains clips from some of your favorite fighting girls, including Neko (the Canadian dreadlocked terror!) Mia, Lia, Keri (Arriana), Jen (http://www.webringit.com/), Dakota, Jasmine, and myself. . . with more to come from Gia Primo and Nikki Fierce. The site is PPV, which means no recurring membership fees, you onyl buy what you really want!! And you can also rent a video just to try them out. . .
This weekend I am off to Dayton to film with the lovely Lady Victoria. . Pro-Style Wrestling videos!!
I managed to find another old blog. . this one was from May 15th, 2006 of this year. . .
Take my love, take my land Take me where I cannot stand I don't care, I'm still free You can't take the sky from me Take me out to the black Tell them I ain't comin' back Burn the land and boil the sea You can't take the sky from me There's no place I can be Since I found Serenity But you can't take the sky from me...
Some days I wish I could be like the cast members in the series “Firefly” just sail away into the sky and hide from it all. . .
I lay alone in my bed and think of all the possibilities. . . I can’t seem to sleep through the night any more, to bed late and up early. . .my heart hurts. . I am trying my best to do what’s right for the people in my life, but instead of feeling better about things I just get more and more frustrated. . . and I don’t know what to do anymore. . I feel like just getting out on the road and not coming back for a month or two. . . and I could make that happen. . .but I doubt it would make any of this better. .
I believe when you want something bad enough, you make it happen. . but . . everything comes with a price. . . and some days I am not up to paying.
So, Wednesday I return to training, I feel my foot is good enough to start easing my way back. . . and I need some good fights. . . .
Hollywood, CA was neat. I flew into Bob Hope Airport and stayed right in the heart of Hollywood, the people were walking around all self important. . . and in Hollywood, if you can’t make it in the movies. . there is always porn!!! LOL What a weird place. . LA LA LAND! I enjoyed the sun and the fights. . and after a full day of plane hopping managed to make it home. . .
Then on Saturday I had the honor of working for Lady Victoria for the first time. It was humbling to go from a video shoot I did very well at, to one where I am still so green, when it comes to pro-wrestling I still have so much to learn, but Lady V, Venus and Fantasia worked with me all day. . and it was so good to be welcomed into that secret sisterhood. . . there are no girls where I train and I finally had them all around me to swap stories and relate to. . *sigh* to be fully understood. . . they had been down this road. . been through relationships, and lived on the road. . . they knew what I felt. . they had felt it too. . . and again, to help me train and get better. . . and I got paid to do it!! I had a really great week of work. . .
And now I am back to realityWhere I lay alone at night and ponder all the possibilities. . .