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Friday, January 30, 2009

HUMAN


The Killers Human Lyrics:


I did my best to notice
when the call came down the line
up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
and sometimes I get nervous
when I see an open door

close your eyes, clear your heart

cut the cord
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees
looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer

pay my respects to grace and virtue
send my condolences to good
give my regards to soul and romance
they always did the best they could
and so long to devotion,
you taught me everything I know
wave good bye, wish me well

you gotta let me go
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees
looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer

will your system be all right
when you dream of home tonight
there is no message we're receiving
let me know is your heart still beating

are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees
looking for the answer

you've gotta let me know
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees
looking for the answer
are we human
or are we dancer

are we human or are we dancer

are we human or are we dancer

Thursday, January 29, 2009

In Idleness I Only Find the Misery of Missing Her

I would like to start out by giving my apologies. I can't seem to keep things straight lately. I can't think right or process information correctly. Nor do I seem able to retain information or access it in my head. I am kinda numb, when I am not sad. I work myself up to 20 hours a day, working out, taking care of my family, processing videos. . until I fall asleep at my desk exhausted most nights. And when I stop and I pause, when I am alone, all I find is the absolute misery of missing my mother. Everything seems harder to do right now. It has gotten better. . I swear it has. . but I still miss her so deeply and really don't know how to deal with all these feelings. . I have not returned to my martial arts training since we found out her cancer was back. . I read but don't retain what I read. . it is like the depths of me are sealed off in sadness. . . I fell little passion for anything right now. . besides my family. . . and I want things to be better. . to feel better. . and I keep pushing myself to go through the motions. . but I am more like an robot, just doing the things I am supposed to do. . I am not sure how to make things better anymore. . and some days I wonder why I even try. . .so if I haven't answered your e-mail. . or I haven't filmed your video correctly. . or if whatever you wanted me to do seems to have fallen short of the mark. . I apologize. .. I am doing my best. . . .
I miss her. So much. She was so proud of me. I wouldn't want to let her down, or anyone of you.
Sybil

Thursday, January 22, 2009

SSP Update; Customs, Clips and Contests!

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Opportunity

Seize opportunity by the beard, for it is bald behind.-Bulgarian Proverb

There is no security on this earth, there is only opportunity. General MacArthur

Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.- Thomas Edison